Cripes - it's all happening!
There's just too much going on right now to put into a single blog post so I'll try to condense it. And keep it sensible: there are things afoot that shouldn't be published, but are having deep affects on me.
It's 12.30 on a Sunday night. We've had a nice day with the boys. Max has done his Mathletics homework and his piano practice. Max and I also had a game of Risk. He thrashed me! Finn has played in the playroom and generally hung out with us. Both boys enjoyed a trip to the playground near Sainsbury's. The weather was sunny and warm.
Max still fixates on Minecraft and YouTube movies about Minecraft. The subject matter is fine by us as long as it's suitable for his age, but his fascination and devotion sometimes makes us worry that he watches too much TV/Computer. Finn the same although he's younger.
I have a clear memory of being about 8-years-old and falling foul of a friend on the small green space opposite 38 Guildfords where I lived at the time. Whatever possessed me I'm not sure, but I played "dead" for probably at least 10 minutes. That feeling of being aware of people watching me and trying to help whilst I ignore them stays with me today. Obviously this is fairly normal for an 8-year-old and I don't worry too much about doing it.
From the same era I also have clear-ish memories of wondering over field and vale, miles from my house without a care from my parents. It's funny that it's taken me 30-odd years to realise it's not quite so simple. I drove down to Harlow yesterday and parked up in Guildfords. I managed to find a pathway through to the old river that I remembered being a focal point for me and my friends of the time. It's actually only about 50 yards from the house I lived in. I'm not disappointed by this revelation, but it's interesting how one's perceptions of youth remain until being challenged by the "reality" of adulthood.
I'm still working on MMOUKI. It's a fascinating project for me and if nothing else is stimulating and enjoyable. I regularly add notes to my phone so that I'll update the latest diagram to reflect new changes. I emailed an academic at the University of Essex yesterday to ask for help deciding whether to apply for an MSc By Dissertation. I had a reply saying that he's travelling and will reply in a week or two. I'm pleased to have something interesting to latch on to and hope to be able to study later this year with some help academically. It might be enjoyable to be able to extend my MMOUKI ideas in a more formal, academic direction.
It was also Father's Day today. Was lovely to have the two boys present me with chocolates and a great book - Sciencia - very informative and useful.
Still working at Virgin although they kindly allow me to be at home for two days per week.
Discussed Wittgenstein with Christina today. I professed a liking for the ascetic ideal of burying oneself away in Norway or Connemara. I think it must be a male thing.
Beyond all he problems a photo like this (link) that I have never seen before still makes me very happy!
